Friday, June 5, 2015

When you think you have it all figured out

For so long I thought that I had things pretty much figured out. Things like, my husband will retire at 20 years from the military, I will homeschool my daughters until they graduate high school, we will save money and get out of debt (for the third time), and we will live happily ever after. I really thought these things! Of course I knew that there will be bumps on the road and maybe a fork or two. God decided he has other plans for us. My husband will not be retiring at 20 years but at 17 years and oh he will not receive a retirement because the Army doesn't have to do that unless you have been in 18 years. I will continue to homeschool my daughters but not without thoughts of finding a public school with a "Great Score" of 10 and seeing them off every morning on the big yellow bus. We are working on our debt but we are upside down on a house I begged my husband for, so it will be awhile. Will we live happily ever after? That's still up in the air but we will try as hard as we could.
This past year has been a roller coaster. Yes I know that is cliche to say but it has been.
My oldest daughter is away at college, my 12 year old was diagnosed with Depression, anxiety and Hashimotos Thyroiditis, my 9 year old spends 12-15 hours a week at gymnastics and we travel a distance to get there.
We have hit mid year and my husbands career is up in the air, my daughters depression seems to be getting better but her thyroid issues are not quite fixed, and my 9 year old is still at gymnastics. I'm scared for our family because the loss of my husbands job means a loss of health insurance. A loss of my husbands job means I may have to send my kids back to school so I can get a J-O-B. No big deal you say about the J-O-B but I haven't worked in 13 years!
I don't know what we will do. I have trust in God and trust in my husband. I trust that God will lead us through this with His absolute wisdom and love. I trust my husband will remain a hard worker and do what he needs to do to provide for us. I will continue to help in anyway I can and I will continue to homeschool unless I no longer can. I will trust in God with all my heart, soul, and mind, ask for peace that surpasses all understanding and Trust in the Lord.

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